my day

Listening to CocoRosie and discovering more about myself than i ever knew. i'm scared. and behind all this frustration and guilt about doing what i want to do in life, rather than what my father has ideas of, is fear. Fear that i'm not doing waht i'm supposed to be doing. i miss the feeling of comfort and not caring, that someone would always be there to clean up my mess. i am on my own. purchasing the life that may not be the one i'm supposed to live. i'm letting god talk from now on. i'm just so scared, i can't do this alone.